I'm a Yogi! I mean a Hypocrite.

As you may know already, I’m in the process of creating an online yoga philosophy course. I really enjoy it and can’t wait for it to come out for all of you to enjoy. However, I gotta be honest with you - it’s a long process. A lot longer than I thought it would be.


It’s a lot of write and rewrite of the scripts.

Correction and re-correction of the visuals.

I constantly find things that need to be fixed, said in another way, or just remove all together.

For my notes and scripts, I use an online note-taking service, which had helped me immensely do my job more efficiently.

And one day, an accident happened.


I was looking at my scripts that I worked on for the past year.


Somehow.. for some reason..

My whole note got selected..


I knew right then and there,

I had to move slow,

To make sure I didn’t touch any key on the keyboard.

Because that one key, one letter, would replace my entire note: a year worth of work.

All my hard work would be replaced by that ONE letter, in a split second.


I know what you're thinking.

Why don't you just do Ctrl+Z and you would retrieve everything back?

Yes, that's a good idea, if you were on your desktop!

But I was on my phone, and there's no way to Ctrl+Z my way out of it.


And then..

Somehow.. for some reason..

I got butter fingers .


My stupid thumb pressed “K” on the phone keyboard,

and my scripts!

all my hard work!

Became a letter...

“K”.


Sidenote:

This cloud note service automatically saves your content as you make changes.

And there is no CTL+Z, or the “un-do” function on your i-phone.


So:

I screamed in panic! “NOOOOO!”

“DAMN YOU 21st century piece of touch screen technology!!”


I put my phone down,

Careful NOT to touch any buttons to make things worse.

Consulted Google on my laptop to find a way to go BACK a step.

And I find out,

There isn’t a way to go back a step in this particular cloud note taking service, like we have in Word Doc or Google Docs.


I call my husband - I don’t know why..

In my head, if someone else knew about my misery, then I’d feel better.

Sharing is.. caring - I guess?


He picks up the phone, super sweet.

He tried saying things to comfort me.

Nothing works!


I hang up because I want to cry.

I cried and ran downstairs like a little child.

Then calmly stormed back upstairs to sit in front of the computer.


Breathe.

I told myself.


Think.

I encouraged myself.


I can’t be the only one with this problem.

There has to be a customer service number!


Well, there isn’t!

WHAT!?!?

There isn’t anyone who sits at a call centre on the other side of the world to listen to my misery?? Preposterous!


Again, feeling frustrated and lost, I consult Mr. Google a little further.

With a little more digging, I found out that there IS a way to “un-do” the stupid edit I made by accident, IF you become a paying customer 😱

So I became a paid customer,

But at least I got months of my work back.

WHAT A RELIEF!

I could feel my stress hormones reduce,

As I saw all my work back on my screen, in front of me.



Then,


I reflected on my reactions.

At first, I didn’t know what to make of it.

It was quite hypocritical of me to be working on a yoga course that should help people to be more stable with their mental and emotional activities, and be frustrated once things went down while working on that yoga course 🤪

I wish I reacted like a Buddha - no reactions at all - not affected by anything- but that wasn’t true for my experience that day.

Although I am proud of myself that I was able to collect my emotions and actions quickly and gear my energ