As you may know already, I’m in the process of creating an online yoga philosophy course. I really enjoy it and can’t wait for it to come out for all of you to enjoy. However, I gotta be honest with you - it’s a long process. A lot longer than I thought it would be.
It’s a lot of write and rewrite of the scripts.
Correction and re-correction of the visuals.
I constantly find things that need to be fixed, said in another way, or just remove all together.
For my notes and scripts, I use an online note-taking service, which had helped me immensely do my job more efficiently.
And one day, an accident happened.
I was looking at my scripts that I worked on for the past year.
Somehow.. for some reason..
My whole note got selected..
I knew right then and there,
I had to move slow,
To make sure I didn’t touch any key on the keyboard.
Because that one key, one letter, would replace my entire note: a year worth of work.
All my hard work would be replaced by that ONE letter, in a split second.
I know what you're thinking.
Why don't you just do Ctrl+Z and you would retrieve everything back?
Yes, that's a good idea, if you were on your desktop!
But I was on my phone, and there's no way to Ctrl+Z my way out of it.
Somehow.. for some reason..
I got butter fingers .
My stupid thumb pressed “K” on the phone keyboard,
and my scripts!
all my hard work!
Became a letter...
This cloud note service automatically saves your content as you make changes.
And there is no CTL+Z, or the “un-do” function on your i-phone.
I screamed in panic! “NOOOOO!”
“DAMN YOU 21st century piece of touch screen technology!!”
I put my phone down,
Careful NOT to touch any buttons to make things worse.
Consulted Google on my laptop to find a way to go BACK a step.
And I find out,
There isn’t a way to go back a step in this particular cloud note taking service, like we have in Word Doc or Google Docs.
I call my husband - I don’t know why..
In my head, if someone else knew about my misery, then I’d feel better.
Sharing is.. caring - I guess?
He picks up the phone, super sweet.
He tried saying things to comfort me.
I hang up because I want to cry.
I cried and ran downstairs like a little child.
Then calmly stormed back upstairs to sit in front of the computer.
I told myself.
I encouraged myself.
I can’t be the only one with this problem.
There has to be a customer service number!
Well, there isn’t!
There isn’t anyone who sits at a call centre on the other side of the world to listen to my misery?? Preposterous!
Again, feeling frustrated and lost, I consult Mr. Google a little further.
With a little more digging, I found out that there IS a way to “un-do” the stupid edit I made by accident, IF you become a paying customer 😱
So I became a paid customer,
But at least I got months of my work back.
WHAT A RELIEF!
I could feel my stress hormones reduce,
As I saw all my work back on my screen, in front of me.
I reflected on my reactions.
At first, I didn’t know what to make of it.
It was quite hypocritical of me to be working on a yoga course that should help people to be more stable with their mental and emotional activities, and be frustrated once things went down while working on that yoga course 🤪
I wish I reacted like a Buddha - no reactions at all - not affected by anything- but that wasn’t true for my experience that day.
Although I am proud of myself that I was able to collect my emotions and actions quickly and gear my energy toward finding solutions, It was very humbling - especially as a ‘yogi’.
So here I am.
The hypocritical self of a homosapien,
who can only move forward and try her best,
every single day,
far from perfection.
Thank you for reading on!